Great to read all of this, I could see myself in that text as well, resonated with how i felt back in the day, I just never had the micro. Glad we have a person like you in this community. Keep it up, make your dreams happen, there's always a way!
I always had the idea that Relic cherished CoH more than they do and did CoH2. This interview pretty much shows this. Nothing will compare to the experience and fun that CoH gave me. The first time playing that game is something I have never experienced with any other game before or since.